Today was our 3rd month. but, it didn;t seem like one to me. It totally sux. Why am i having deeper cuts in my heart? Can't it be healed?

Someone just tell me pls. I really hate to suffer. It is pain, not physical pain, emotional stress i suppose. I just dunno how to express it. Sometimes, i feel like i should never be in this world, sometimes i just wanna keep my eyes close and sleep eternally, sometimes i just wanna shout all my sufferings out. But i can't, its just to difficult.




Ah. long time no post. Today has been a boring day. Dear went to malaysia and i was so bored in singapore. Haiz.. dear, i miss u:(:(:( hope u can sleep well over dere and take care of yourself.

I suppose i will be watching ocean13 tomorrow. yupps with colin, tongyi... last of all, God bless all of u ^______________^




Emerge finally arrived. The atmosphere is great man i tell u. Tell u guys to believe in the power of 1. Shamgar overcame the odds and killed 600 Philistines all by his own. Wow! U must be audacious, have AUDACITY! Be daring! Take a step of faith forward man. Woah! I tell u dat if are not at my church during dis youth conference u will regret it man! The new praise and worship songs rock man! Oh and to tell u dat if u watch the brainiest youth competiton its great. They are really BRAINY ya know... so chim all the questions and yet dey can answer. Today was the maths olympiad and i tell u dat guys sure solve questions faster than the person could ask finish. $1000 for the winner leh. So good...

Oh, and guessed what?! Dear finally came to my hse haha! she saw my mum and my little sis. WOOTS! And my sis like to play with her maple, haha! getting alongwell eh? Oh, and i oso send my dear back to her house. all the way to her house not like last time when i only sent her back to her house downstairs. haha. dear are u happy?

Ah, and i look forward to my 100th day combined with my 3 months. Got a suprised for dear^^ and after my 100th day its my birthday!!!!!! haha! so happy and excited. i believe dear is oso looking forward to dat day rite? i love u more each rising day my dearest madel. and i oso look forward to every church service!!!

Emerge is gonna end soon, so i wanna make the best out of it. Pastor Kong has been fasting and i hope christians in the church can appreciate his hard work and pls do not fall asleep pls though i know its cold.

Today which is my 76th day was fun. sent dear to her doorstep and went home. before dat i went service. dull though like i said 3 cell members. after dat went airport to eat and then send dear home. wah seh, i tell u hor, wait for bus no.24 wait super long lo.___________________________________________. after bout like 15mins the bus finally came. Ah,today was really great! Dear, 24 more days. excited? haha