Today was our 3rd month. but, it didn;t seem like one to me. It totally sux. Why am i having deeper cuts in my heart? Can't it be healed?

Someone just tell me pls. I really hate to suffer. It is pain, not physical pain, emotional stress i suppose. I just dunno how to express it. Sometimes, i feel like i should never be in this world, sometimes i just wanna keep my eyes close and sleep eternally, sometimes i just wanna shout all my sufferings out. But i can't, its just to difficult.




Ah. long time no post. Today has been a boring day. Dear went to malaysia and i was so bored in singapore. Haiz.. dear, i miss u:(:(:( hope u can sleep well over dere and take care of yourself.

I suppose i will be watching ocean13 tomorrow. yupps with colin, tongyi... last of all, God bless all of u ^______________^




Emerge finally arrived. The atmosphere is great man i tell u. Tell u guys to believe in the power of 1. Shamgar overcame the odds and killed 600 Philistines all by his own. Wow! U must be audacious, have AUDACITY! Be daring! Take a step of faith forward man. Woah! I tell u dat if are not at my church during dis youth conference u will regret it man! The new praise and worship songs rock man! Oh and to tell u dat if u watch the brainiest youth competiton its great. They are really BRAINY ya know... so chim all the questions and yet dey can answer. Today was the maths olympiad and i tell u dat guys sure solve questions faster than the person could ask finish. $1000 for the winner leh. So good...

Oh, and guessed what?! Dear finally came to my hse haha! she saw my mum and my little sis. WOOTS! And my sis like to play with her maple, haha! getting alongwell eh? Oh, and i oso send my dear back to her house. all the way to her house not like last time when i only sent her back to her house downstairs. haha. dear are u happy?

Ah, and i look forward to my 100th day combined with my 3 months. Got a suprised for dear^^ and after my 100th day its my birthday!!!!!! haha! so happy and excited. i believe dear is oso looking forward to dat day rite? i love u more each rising day my dearest madel. and i oso look forward to every church service!!!

Emerge is gonna end soon, so i wanna make the best out of it. Pastor Kong has been fasting and i hope christians in the church can appreciate his hard work and pls do not fall asleep pls though i know its cold.

Today which is my 76th day was fun. sent dear to her doorstep and went home. before dat i went service. dull though like i said 3 cell members. after dat went airport to eat and then send dear home. wah seh, i tell u hor, wait for bus no.24 wait super long lo.___________________________________________. after bout like 15mins the bus finally came. Ah,today was really great! Dear, 24 more days. excited? haha




Went to catch a movie on marking day the 11th of May. Watch spiderman 3 with dear, venessa, colin and ryan. Btw, its quite a nice show, if u haven't watch it, pls go and watch. Oh, and last week, the Sermon of the Mount series has just started. Pastor Kong preached a powerful message. WOW! its awesome man. The Sermon of the Mount series is the most powerful and important message dat the LORD has preaced to his disciples and people. Okay, back to the day. Hmm, after the movie(fast forward), we went to Steven's house for cell group. Learnt that we have to be passionate for GOD. Hmm, then we went to chalet and meet all my other friends.

On sat, went out with my darling to bugis village to get a bag. Met dear's sister and cousin. Kena suan-.- learnt not to suan others. Ah, then went to look for venessa and i got to go to church for my main service. Had to book seats. Eugene was not really happy with the rest of the youth as they came late. Anyways, service was fantastic. We learnt bout MEEKNESS. Do not retaliate as a person who is meek always has an absence of the soul of retaliation. Have self-control and other stuff. Wanna know more can find me in school during the morning, recess or after school.

Today, which is a sunday, i went for the morning service as i wanna get the message Pastor Kong is preaching. Learnt that we must be hungry for the spirit. What we have now is still not very satisfying, we have to hunger for more, in this way, we can grow stronger. spiritually and physically. And we will move on to another level. After service, me, dear and venessa went to tampines. Made dear sad and dear, im really sorry. Sent dear home and i went home. Passed my mum her mother's day present and passed dear's present too. My mum said thank you. Hahas.




yeah man, exams are going to be over soon^^ married dear in maple le. yippie! then we went fishing, hahas. hmm, school ended dis few days quite early as there were exams, then i go home super sian. oh and tommorow my city harvest is starting sermon on the mount. praise the lord!




23th april 07- our 1st midyear paper has started. gosh, im confident dis paper is passable=) after dis went to ryan hse with my dear. but of coz, we had our lunch 1st. got to ryan hse and had a few rounds of pool till my cousin, mr eugene came to give us maths remedial. after remedial, worshipped my heavenly father til bout 5.30 and the rest of the guys went home. continued playing pool and then went home.

24th april 07- 2nd paper on english. kinda ok except for some quim quim questions, otherwise if no careless, should be able to do well. hmm, after dat was a stupid ICAS test.Shao completed dis paper in record time-5mins...LOL. teacher made a remark on him for IRREGULAR BEHAVIOUR-_________-" oh during the hour break before oral, got into trouble and got punished by a teacher. Oral was ok and wonder how did i do... dar dar went for prayer meeting and i went home.

25th april 07- no exams today. hmm, today was kinda boring. had geog make-up lessons after sch so dar and her other friends went to parkway for lunch and shopping.

26th april 07- wad a rainy day it was. disappointed dear and she was fuming mad at me. sorry for wad has happen today. she forgived me. after sch, went to bugis with dear and our friends, due to curfew timing, got to run on home nt long after reaching dere.

27th april 07- oh it was friday. had pe and opened the scoring for soccer! hahas. dear had extra lessons so i run on home 1st. tongyi came my hse to study and we were challenging each other in solving maths question. and classmates out dere, he wanted me to tell u guys that he solved some question dat he thinks most people cant solve and he wants to hao lian. LMAO

28th april 07- woohoo! went to the movies with dear and my mei. watched 200 pounds. wad an emotional ending to the story. went to cell group and the msg was on visualizing ur dreams and making them come true. then went to church. pastor was great and theres dis african guy who loves to dance. haha. i learnt simply one thing- DO NOT LET UR EMOTIONS RULE U, coz U RULE THEM.

29th april 07- its our 43rd day! happy 43rd day darling. love ya^^ muacks! i went to make my specs and got my hair cut. studied then later somehoe managed to use com.




Wah easter was fun yesterday. Lol. The drama was super funny xD wish u were at my church yesterday. Hmm, today madel will be back in singapore. Finally i have her back. 4 days of hardship deep down in my heart, all have passed=) OH! and madel, happy 3rd week!!! hahas.